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I've had a thousand fantasies and only a single life I can count on one hand how many times I've done it And yet I feel uninhibited, drunk on something that's not alcohol Can I grip onto your shirt for purchase, or will you be offended? It's not like me, I have to admit But it is something new, an adventure if you might call it I would like to stay on the ride, please If you don't mind, please, let me stay on for a little longer The air whips past my face, snapping my hair into my cheeks My knuckles can't be whiter, my blood any redder I wonder if I open my mouth Will my entire head swell up like a balloon and blow up? In another universe, I took a steady step forwards and died on the spot No one heard the great tree crashing down on top I wonder if people even knew when they buried my body That I had been rotting away on the inside for a while now The present always beckons, ever persistent like a clock No one waits for you, you have to wai

Dappled leaves fingering into a cloudless sky I seek the truth in its branches What do you want to know? They whisper And I shrug, nestled in their arms Fey mutterings haunt my ears Ghostly white dresses sweeping the ground Pale hands holding a rusted lantern I hear the wail of the silent lady Tapping fingers on my windows The storm is laughing at the moon I curl up in my watercolor blanket And I listen to the water songs I stand, bell like, in an ocean of black Alone in a sea that sucks and pulls And clings to those who don't know So I drown, in something svelte and something mean Let me try again from the top Rewind the past and let me forget What exactly you meant to me Because otherwise I can't laugh You touch down and land with a careless grace Something quiet unique, something quite marvelous I just can't put my finger on it, that part of you But something deep inside really wants to You are a many folded contradiction   A